Christmas;

Well today is Christmas, and it doesn't even seem like its Christmas. I don't know why but i feel very lonely right now =(. Always Christmas is a disappointment.. I guess it's not really a family thing anymore? We don't ever do anything that is related to family, which is kinda sad. *sighh.

Yesterday was Christmas Eve, and I went over to Ren's house with his family. It was pretty fun. Played Bingo and lost hella money cause we didn't even win one round. We won one round when his mom came in. Which was pretty funny. Didn't expect it but got a shirt from his brother and his girlfriend. And also free movie tickets from his sister and her boyfriend. Which was really nice of them. Also got this lotion set thing from Bath & Body Works. It's really cute ^__^. Overall it was fun just hanging out there.

I don't know whats wrong with me, but I feel like i need a good cry or something. It's just really boring on Christmas day too. Makes me feel even worse than I already am. I feel like I'm being avoided by who you know who. Every time I call, he doesn't pick up. Sometimes when I text he doesn't text back? Maybe it's just me? I think it's just me because it's always just me... I guess I just miss hanging out with people. Or maybe just the ones that really matter. I've been bugging him to come over today to pick up his gift. Didn't even call me back or anything. Eh, it's whatever I guess? I'm trying here... And nothing in return...

This Christmas stinks..