Ehh

I don't know what's up with me lately, but I've been kinda off? & it freakin sucks dick. . These past two weeks have been very iffy and I'm not feelin it. I just don't know what to say.. Things kinda changed and it's really not your fault. You can't do anything about it. I want/need my space.. I don't know how I feel anymore.

-_-

:(

I need a change

Soo idk what I'm doing right now.. I'm just at home and bored so I thought I would blog. (: School has been alright, just got our report cards in the mail the other day. Good thing my parents didn't see it. Haha. They never check my mail though so it's all good. [: my grades were pretty bad though so it's kinda poop. But hopefully this last semester of my high school career would be a better one.

This Saturday is valentines day -__- I really don't know what going to happen on that day. What ever happens, happens I guess so. I'm not triyng to expect much though.

Anywhooooo, enough about that kind of stuff. I haven't really been hanging out with my friends lately =(. Well there's no differnece I really don't hang out with them at all-__- I've just been hanging out with Ren. I really don know why I hang out with him a lot. I'm not tryi g to say its a bad thing.. Idk I need a change. I don't think that change is coming anytime soon though.. I wanna hang out with my friends with out him worryin or always on my back checking up on me and stuff. I love him and all but I just sometimes need time by myself or with some of my other friends. I don't really like it like this.. But it's been going on for a long time. I try to make plans with other people. Idk. I think a lot of things are going to change when I turn 18. I'll have my license and I'll have my own car to drive too. No more being in the passenger seat. It's all about the drivers seat. I just can't wait.. To have my freedom that I've been wanting for so long.

So apparently, whn I get my license I dintbgwt I drive the Honda? Ain't that some bullshit?! My mom said she bought that car it me to drive when I get my license. But look here now! My dad told Katherine thy she has to save up for her own car. ( which means no more Cali:( ) so hen that happens my mom still gets to drive the Honda and I get to drive the gay ass camry. =( ugh! Hella gay.. But I guess it's the only option. Poopy. I don't know why but I really don't wanna drive that car. Jut something about it. Lol. Hmm. Maybe I can trade I'm that car for something else?! Hahah that's going to be impossible for me parentals.. At least I'll have a car when I get my license. WHEN I get my license -_-.

I'm just waiting on June 21st baby. .

It's freaking only 9:30

I have no idea why I'm so sleepy right now -.- I guess I don't take my daily nap at babes house. Haha. Soo I just downloaded this app on my iPhone where I can post up blogs from an app instead of using the safari they have. Haha :) I'm liking this. Hehe. They had this one app but it costed money haha. Didn't really wanna buy it.

It's been a long time since I updated this thing. Haha. Senior year is getting a bit more stessful since the senior oral presentations. >< this is hella gay! I really think it's hella pointless. Ute it teaches us stuff but it's pretty gay. Hahaha.

On Friday I went to the mall with Ren and picked up my paycheck :)! It was an alright amount hehe. I deposited it into my checkings. And went to go eat at BJ's with Mudita and her boo friend. It was nice catching up with get and stuff. And the food was soo good. Hahaha !

I bought a new camera afterwrds at circuit city :( it was $156! Ren paid about 5 dollars so I wouldn't overdraft on my card. Haha. Yeahhh I'm too scarred to tell my parents that I broke the camera so I just bought one myself lol. :(

K, I'm done. Night beezy's.

iPhone status;

So I'm hella bored right now and got nothing to do :( i'm sitting or layin on my couch on a Friday night haha. There's kinda nothing to do? I don't really wanna go out cause I got work in the damn morning haha. It's allll good. Party on Saturday?! Whaat whaat. Haha. Hope everything works out though haha nothing to worry about. Hmm, what has been happening lately? Nothing really at all. I got a case and screen protector for my phone (= I'm so halt that I got that cause I ain't tryna break my phone or non. Lol. Dcon is coming soon! Well not really like two more months? Things got hella stressful when we didn't know who was rooming with who but I guess we got that settled and ish. :) and I got some guys to go too. This years dcon is going to be pretty interesting..

It's getting hella cold! I mean like hella hella cold >< I'm not a really big fan of cold?! Haha. I like that summer timeeeeee!

Oh yeah, Katherine and I are thinking about going to Cali in the summer! But when we thought about it I was going to go to this art school and it starts the beginning of July bug she was thinking on going in the middle of July which I can't do. But just to be safe and such, we're going during spring break! Hell yeah! Haha I can't wait. I gotta save up hella money though no joke. Haha.

Now I don't even know if I'm going to major in art or not?! I'm super confused on what to major in. it's such a hard decision to make..

It's Been Awhiles..

It's been a GOOD two ish weeks since I updated this shit. LOL. I got's an iPhone now! but my camera broke so I wont be posting any pictures for awhile :( Pooopy, very poopy. IDK what to write in here. Nothing's really on my mind right now..?

LATERS..

F*CK OFF

I'm extremely annoyed at the moment..

I'm done thinking

Today was the first day of school after winter break and guess what? I didn't even go! Hahaha I was hella lazy to wake up and shit. Even though it was a 2 hour delay due to the snow AGAIN, I still didn't go. Hahah I slept in until like 12:45 ish. Lmao god daym, I'm hella lazy...

Recap for the last few days; I broke my phone and I broke my camera =( wth is wrong with me and electronics now?! Ughhh, well I'm fine with breaking my phone cause I'll eventually get another one, well that goes for the camera too. But shit! Fuck me! Hahaha. Ren kinda broke my phone =( he put it in the side pocket of my backpack and my backpack fell on its side and it cracked my screen so now you can't see it anymore :[ hella gay. & I'm going to get a new phone, and I only need to spend like 80 bucks MAX but still I don't even have 80 bucks in my bank. Hahaha idk if I still want to buy it though. I can start saving my money! [: & for my camera? I broke it at a party... Hahaha not really? Well i just turned it on and it was being poopy. Like it did what it did to my last camera, when I turn it on, it just stays there. Like there lens would pop out but when i turned it off the lens would just stay popped out! WTH?!?! >:[ Hella gay! Idk what to do! Poop. Real big poop.

So I'm done thinking now! Finally! This past week has been kinda hella retarded! But since he talked to me just awhile ago, I feel a lot better now. We're all on the same page as well which is always good. I hate being on different pages. Thanks for talking to me fatty. I feel a lot better.

I love parties! I love to party with my head b*tches (=
-- pictures later [: since i broke my camera

Result of the New Year's

08 was great, but it's time for 09 to be mighty fine :) Corny I know. Hahaha it's all good. I had about 200 pictures from New Year's but didn't feel like uploading up ALL of them, so here are just a few. New Year's was pretty fun lol. Got to see people that I didn't see all break which was gooood. Went to G's house in the beginning went there to chill and chill some more. Left to Derrik's house. Did some drinking. Hahaha. Crashed there for the night. My dad wasn't even mad when I got home. LOL! Which was kinda odd... Hmm I really don't know? Lol. But a new year is always good. Basically starting off fresh. I can't just wait to graduate! Seriously this is OUR year. Oh yeah, can't wait.

And so the thinking continues... Now I know for a fact that he doesn't like me. I knew I was really iffy about it, but now I know for sure. He's isn't interested in being my friend anymore. Totally got bitched at a few days ago and it didn't feel good at all. Like seriously what the hell else am I suppose to do? I can't fix this shit now. What's done is done right? & I know for a darn fact that if you were in someone elses' shoes you would've done the same thing. The thing is that I don't get, I don't get why you can't see it from MY side or anything. Honestly, I do care what you think of me. & I just can't have you being mad at me and shit. It's just not fair, but who ever said life was ever fair right?

& something else too, I really don't know where we're at anymore. Friends or what? We talked about it a few days ago and I felt comforted knowing that your still there for me, but after what happened I really don't know if your mad at me or not. I can't have you mad at me. Honestly, I don't know what to do. I really want to fix this and make everything back into peace. But your not even there to know what I'm thinking. It's always me thinking too much about things. But maybe this time what I'm thinking is true...