Ehh

I don't know what's up with me lately, but I've been kinda off? & it freakin sucks dick. . These past two weeks have been very iffy and I'm not feelin it. I just don't know what to say.. Things kinda changed and it's really not your fault. You can't do anything about it. I want/need my space.. I don't know how I feel anymore.

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:(

I need a change

Soo idk what I'm doing right now.. I'm just at home and bored so I thought I would blog. (: School has been alright, just got our report cards in the mail the other day. Good thing my parents didn't see it. Haha. They never check my mail though so it's all good. [: my grades were pretty bad though so it's kinda poop. But hopefully this last semester of my high school career would be a better one.

This Saturday is valentines day -__- I really don't know what going to happen on that day. What ever happens, happens I guess so. I'm not triyng to expect much though.

Anywhooooo, enough about that kind of stuff. I haven't really been hanging out with my friends lately =(. Well there's no differnece I really don't hang out with them at all-__- I've just been hanging out with Ren. I really don know why I hang out with him a lot. I'm not tryi g to say its a bad thing.. Idk I need a change. I don't think that change is coming anytime soon though.. I wanna hang out with my friends with out him worryin or always on my back checking up on me and stuff. I love him and all but I just sometimes need time by myself or with some of my other friends. I don't really like it like this.. But it's been going on for a long time. I try to make plans with other people. Idk. I think a lot of things are going to change when I turn 18. I'll have my license and I'll have my own car to drive too. No more being in the passenger seat. It's all about the drivers seat. I just can't wait.. To have my freedom that I've been wanting for so long.

So apparently, whn I get my license I dintbgwt I drive the Honda? Ain't that some bullshit?! My mom said she bought that car it me to drive when I get my license. But look here now! My dad told Katherine thy she has to save up for her own car. ( which means no more Cali:( ) so hen that happens my mom still gets to drive the Honda and I get to drive the gay ass camry. =( ugh! Hella gay.. But I guess it's the only option. Poopy. I don't know why but I really don't wanna drive that car. Jut something about it. Lol. Hmm. Maybe I can trade I'm that car for something else?! Hahah that's going to be impossible for me parentals.. At least I'll have a car when I get my license. WHEN I get my license -_-.

I'm just waiting on June 21st baby. .