Christmas;

Well today is Christmas, and it doesn't even seem like its Christmas. I don't know why but i feel very lonely right now =(. Always Christmas is a disappointment.. I guess it's not really a family thing anymore? We don't ever do anything that is related to family, which is kinda sad. *sighh.

Yesterday was Christmas Eve, and I went over to Ren's house with his family. It was pretty fun. Played Bingo and lost hella money cause we didn't even win one round. We won one round when his mom came in. Which was pretty funny. Didn't expect it but got a shirt from his brother and his girlfriend. And also free movie tickets from his sister and her boyfriend. Which was really nice of them. Also got this lotion set thing from Bath & Body Works. It's really cute ^__^. Overall it was fun just hanging out there.

I don't know whats wrong with me, but I feel like i need a good cry or something. It's just really boring on Christmas day too. Makes me feel even worse than I already am. I feel like I'm being avoided by who you know who. Every time I call, he doesn't pick up. Sometimes when I text he doesn't text back? Maybe it's just me? I think it's just me because it's always just me... I guess I just miss hanging out with people. Or maybe just the ones that really matter. I've been bugging him to come over today to pick up his gift. Didn't even call me back or anything. Eh, it's whatever I guess? I'm trying here... And nothing in return...

This Christmas stinks..

BORED

I'm freakin bored out of my mind! Its only 9:30 and I'm at home. This is some gay shit. Hhaha. There's nothing to do because of the stupid snow outside ! :[ I swear is there wasn't any snow I would be out right now. Well maybe on my way home cause it is kinda late? Hhaha who knows. But this break is going really slow right now. There's really nothing to do because of the stupid snow! Please snow go away :( Hmm Christmas is here in about two more days. woot woot (VERY sarcastically) I'm not really excited for Christmas anymore. I thought I was but really I'm not? Hahah idk what's wrong with me. Christmas doesn't excite me anymore like it use to. It's just been kinda poop for the past two years. Not in the Christmas spirit anymore I guess.

Hmm, what else is on my mind? Today I got mail from International Academy of Design & Technology and guess what? I got accepted! Hahaha it's not so hard to get in but still. My first college acceptance. :D Yay me! We'll see if I really go there. I wanna see if i got accepted to UW though. I think that would be the tightest thing ever. But I don't know what I study at UW. Lmao which kinda sucks. Cause I want to get into design but ehhh?

What else? What else? I'm not really excited to go back to school either. Lol school's a draaag. But hey, I try in school. & I'm doing quite well in school thank you very much :D

I miss my friends.. =/

UPDATE;

its been a really long time since i've updated this crap. haha but oh well i have nothing else to do right now.. well kinda i do but oh well (=. damn the last time i blogged was in the summer. haha its been about 3 or 4 ish months since then? haha thats a pretty long time, and a lot has happened from 4 months ago. im currently typing on my NEW laptop that i got on black friday (= pretty interesting experience, but never forgetful. gay experience as well.. don't wanna talk about it.. eh. so its almost christmas, its actually 4 more days until christmas. haha which is weird O_O it doesnt even feel like christmas yet.. haha even though its been like snowing fucking 24/7! snow is kinda being a lil bitch now. ughhh, oh well. lol the snow is making people go NO WHERE. hahaha its kinda funny though.. but not really. i should be kickin it now! WTH?! o_O. it's been exactly a year since grandma pasted away =[ mommy went to Vietnam for the month . errrg, i wanted to go too =( but then i dont have any money! there are other times. OH, i'm employed now! hehe BEEN working at XXI. but its freakin shit! hahaha. that place is alright.. but im making money so its all good. haha i need the money though bro. hmm what has happened in the past four months? A LOT. i talk to gretchen now. its pretty cool. not tryna hold a grudge or anything anymore. but then my brother doesn't really want me hanging out or talking to her? well he just said not to have her at the house. so she doesnt come over. she just came over once and we just chilled and caught up on things. hung out with her and jericaaaa OUTSIDE of school. which is pretty awesome. haha i dont hang out with people outside of school anymore. lmao its just all school friends now. see them at school, talk to them at school. i rarely hang with the people at school. except ren. HAHAHA. thing are going pretty good with him and our relationship. nothing big has kinda happened? idk.. just the same old stuff. haha. hmm, i've been kinda drifting away from david =[ which is getting kinda normal... IDK! its getting harder and harder to hang out with him, cause i got a boyfriend. but thats never an excuse. idk whats going to happen. but all i know is that we still would be really good friends through out the years. i hope nothing changes though. i dont think i'll let it happen o_o.. he's too great of a friend xD oh shittttttttt, you know what else?! hahahaha. its been basically a year since i've known ugly kenneth pham. LMAOOOOOOOO. thats hella crazy its been a year already o_O doesn't seem like a year. LOL seems hella longer. yeah our friendship has its ups and downs. and what kind of friendship doesn't right? xD idk. past year has been very interesting.. lol bad and good. but i don't think i need to say it on the internet xD. hahaha. oh well...? who knows.. hope things don't change as well. but it kinda has too? losing touch with everybody? eh not so good. damn its hard though. a girl needs her friends. haha. i really wonder what would happen if i was single O_O it would be kinda weird though. haha ... yeahh.. can't see it. but i kinda do miss being single though! no doubt. lol. school is going good too! getting good grades and what not. woot woot. i'm hella proud of myself! lol going into college and shits like that. poop. i need to apply to other places as well. but im getting HELLA lazy. rawrrr. i just need 50 for Western. and answer questions to IADT. do an essay for Ai, ughhh kinda a lot to do. school is almost over though! crazy.. just 6 more months of school and we're freakin' out of here! well this is a lot for one blog, so imma end it here. =] the most i've ever written haha. woooooo.